Wednesday Weigh In

Up .2 lbs.

I just don’t have a lot to say about it.  For the last seven weeks now I’ve been weighing myself every Wednesday and recording it.  Posting about it.  Resolving to do better and be more conscious and blah blah blah.  Making a little rule maybe.  Waxing philosophical about it.

But this?  There’s just no denying the fact that I am not doing what it takes.  And you know what?  It is quite clear that I don’t really care.

I thought the weigh ins would make me more accountable, help me be more aware of what I am doing.  And I’m aware of it.  I’m logging faithfully the “3.5 glasses of white wine” or the “2 bags of pretzel m and ms”.  I’m totally, consciously aware of each bite that takes me further away from my goals.  And this week the voice in my head said, “So what?  Who cares?”  I start out each day wanting to do better, and by the end I’m shoveling cookies and wine into my piehole.

I don’t have any grand statements or resolutions about it this week.  But I am also going to own it.  I thought about posting a lie, that my weight was unchanged.  It’s just a tiny little .2 of a lb.  Right?  There’s something about UP rather than STAYED THE SAME that sounds So Much Worse.

But no.  In seven weeks I have put on a pound and a half, and that’s where I’m at.  I’m unhappy about it.  That is all.

Weigh In Stats:

Current Week:  +.2
Total Since Start of Challenge:  +1.4
Total Weight Left To Lose:  22 lbs
BMI:  29.7

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2 responses to “Wednesday Weigh In”

  1. Heather H (@SushiJammies) says :

    Have you considered taking a break from the scale? I can’t stop tracking because I use it as an excuse to overeat, but I have taken breaks from weighing in before for a while. Sometimes it helps.

    • mostlyforward says :

      Every time I do that it makes things worse because i’m even less accountable. I just need to get serious. I know what to do, and I know I’m choosing not to. Simple as that.

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